another attempt.
today i felt like i needed a place to write down my thought so i decided to use tumblr. i’ll give it a try. last time i wrote one thing and i stopped. fail. anyways, i just want to remember what i feel or what i think of every day. i did keep a daily journal but i’m too lazy to do that now. i guess i’ll go back to that when i feel like i don’t have to internet blog my life. but i really want there to be record of my existence because i don’t feel “real” sometimes. my life feel like a routine. /: & actually a lot has been going on in my life. problems at work. lack of motivation in school. family stuff. straying away from god. in a nutshell, just everything has been weird. i always had problems here and there but this time it’s a little too much all at once. not that i cannot handle it but i just feel a bit sad. yesterday i saw a very nasty scene on the road on west and lampson. i was on my way to work and bam. i saw a guy that got hit by a car or something on the floor with couple of polices around him. he was half opened. i was soo shocked i just can’t remember seeing anything else but that guy and a motorcycle police who kept pointing the other direction at me. he was signaling me to go the other way but i was too shocked to do anything. i just u turned in the middle of the road and went the other way but wow. it was soo disturbing. i’ll never forget that. i didn’t want to go to work but i still went. anyways today at school we watched ask the dusk. we are reading that book right now and it’s pretty interesting. i like it. but wow the movie had some awkward scenes. especially the sex scenes were weird to watch in class. they were way too passionate and long. the awkward silence in class made it more weird. then bio came. learned about evolution. whatevers. then i visited julie…ate our costco hotdogs and talked for hours. we had a lot to catch up on. i took her home so she can do her essay and we had some coffee and more talks. then i got home and i felt lazy so i decided no gym today. now i just have a long to-do list waiting on me. time goes by way to fast. i need to really focus and prioritize correctly…and hopefully i’ll use this tool to remember part of my life because everything only becomes a blur when i don’t write it down somewhere.
